Rating: G
Pairing: Shalimar/Emma
Series: Two Hearts
Disclaimer: I don't own any of these characters; all rights go to those who do. I am just using them.
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-Emma-
Almost two months had passed since Emma swore she would never talk to Shalimar again. The vow at the time seemed like it wouldn't be that hard to keep; but as days turned into weeks, and weeks turned into months she found herself falling deeper and deeper into a depression. The affects of mating were taking over her body and allowing her heart to be in charge.
In the mist of all the chaos, she made a not so intelligent decision to quit seeing her psychiatrist. The more and more she didn't talk, the more and more she withdrew herself from the crowd. Her teammates were all worried about her, especially the one she didn't want to care the most.
-Shalimar-
Emma had made it quite clear that she didn't want Shalimar hanging around her, but that didn't mean she listened. All Shalimar could do, was sit back and admire her from a far. She wasn't sure if it was the same for Emma as it was for her; but the day that fought, was the day her world slowly began to crumble.
She couldn't sleep at night, she hardly ever ate, the motivation just wasn't there like it used to be, and she knew that as long as her and Emma were linked; this state would never go away. All she wanted was for Emma to tell her that she needed her as much as she did. There was no comfort for her and no escape from the pain. Her heart was in constant torment; and she had begun to think about things that made her nervous.
She couldn't continue living on with this love for someone that wanted nothing to do with her. For a feral, it was the ultimate heartache. But at the same time, she knew that it was all her fault. If she hadn't been so hesitant and so damn cruel, maybe today she would be holding Emma in her arms. But for now, she would just have to settle for distance, hoping that someday she would find a way to forgive her.
-Emma-
She could feel someone's eyes on her. It was a feeling that she didn't particularly enjoy, but she knew that at the same time, it was the one thing that brought her any kind of comfort. It had been so long since she felt anything but hurt, that she was beginning to loose control of her powers. Love is funny that way, especially when you love someone who couldn't care less about you.
She just sat there, letting whomever it was have their little voyeur moment. She had a lot of work to do, and couldn't be bothered with such trivial events. She was actually doing quite well; until she could have sworn she'd heard someone cry out that they loved her in their mind. This had gotten her full attention, and when she turned around to see who it was, she was displeased to find that no one was there. Or so she thought!
-Shalimar-
Shalimar had managed to steer clear of Emma's glance, before she revealed herself. She was more than aware that Emma had heard her heart breaking inside. The emotions were more then she could control. Her knees suddenly lost the ability to support her, and she slid down the wall in tears. She couldn't take much more of this. The only comfort that was brought to her was the feeling of her own arms wrapping themselves around her body. In her mind, the world had stopped in time, leaving them forever damaged. She was crying out in pain and didn't think anyone could hear her. But, she was wrong.
There was someone who heard her, actually, there were two some ones that heard her loud and clear. They were near by, watching her every move; and making a decision that would either make or break her.
-Jessie & Brennan-
Jess and Bren were secretly stashed behind the corner of the Sanctuary hallway feeling sorry for their friends. They had never seen them act like this before, and it was really starting to get to them.
"You know as well as I do bro that they can't keep this up much longer. You see what they have been reduced to!"
"Jess I know, but what can we do? Every time I try to talk to either one of them, they just avoid the issue. It's like they don't even care."
"But you know they do, and that's why it is up to us to do something about it. I hate seeing Shal in this kind of state, and Emma is beginning to loose control of her powers. Adam said that he didn't know what to do and believe me, he has tried everything. Now, I think it's our turns."
Bren raised an eyebrow of curiosity the minute Jess said that last remark. He knew that Jess was a smart guy, and if anyone could fix this, he was the one to do it; but how was the part he just couldn't get.
"Well, that's all great, fine, and wonderful, but just what do you suggest that we do that hasn't already been done?
"We force them to deal with each other!"
"And just how are we going to do that?"
"We're going to put them in a situation that they won't be able to get out of, unless they talk!"
"I'm listening!"
"Well, then why don't I feel you in on the rest of the details!"
Jess smiled, as he put his arm around Bren and lead him into the kitchen. He knew that this was the only chance that they were going to get at it, so they had better know what they were doing.
-Shalimar-
She sat in her room, just listening to the words of the song. It's funny, she never really like this kind of music before, until she lost Emma. Pop wasn't really her bag, but the sadness of unrequited love seemed to be expressed well in the lyrics.
"This time I'm done with always screwing up
I'm sick of one direction down
I'm a broken picture frame
My whole world's twisted inside out
Streaming voices like a hurricane
It's telling me to wake up
Get out of bed
Put your feet on the floor
There's fresh air out the door
And I've been acting so pathetic
Knocking around like a ball on a string
It's taking time for me to get it
I'm ready and willing to do anything to make it up to you
My arms are hurting so bad from being so empty
My heart weighs like a ton cause it feels so heavy
I'm standing here all alone
Wishing that I could've known
You just can't walk away
From the damage
Last time I'm playing with a broken string
It don't matter no one's listening
Cause losing you has made me see
I've gotta change
Gotta blame it
All on me
And I've been acting so pathetic
Knocking around like a ball on a string
It's taking time for me to get it
I'm ready and willing to do anything to make it up to you (oh)
My arms are hurting so bad from being so empty (so empty)
My heart weighs like a ton cause it feels so heavy (heavy yeah)
I'm standing here all alone
Wishing that I could've known
That you just can't walk away
From the damage (damage)
My eyes may as well be blind if I just can't see you(if I can't see you)
My hands may as well be tied cause they just can't touch you (touch you)
Before the smoke can really clear away
From fires I started yesterday
I know I've gotta find a way
Somehow I've gotta find a way to wake up
From the damage
My arms are hurting so bad from being so empty
My heart weighs like a ton cause it feels so heavy
I'm standing here all alone
Wishing that I could've known
You just can't walk away
From the damage
My eyes may as well be blind if I just can't see you
My hands may as well be tied cause they just can't touch you
I'm standing here all alone
Wishing that I could've known
You just can't walk away
From the Damage
I'm standing here all alone
Wishing that I could've known
You just can't walk away
From the damage"
She felt the words sync into her like the fangs of a vampire. They described her situation perfectly; and she was completely convinced that the song was written with her in mind.
She knew she had been the idiot in this whole mess. Did she really think that she could make love to Emma, and escape the consequences? Ferals aren't usually this stupid; but then again, she did always consider herself to be one of a kind!
She hit the repeat button once more; hoping that each time the song played, that it would some how show her the way to make everything alright again. She leaned back in her bed and grabbed her second pillow; cuddling it like it was Emma. She closed her eyes tightly, and tried to vision Emma's face in her head. It never took her long to have every detail defined in her mind. She could see and feel the sting of her piecing brown eyes, the warm sensation of her hot breath on her neck, and the way the corner of her mouth crept up in a half smile. It was all she needed to get through the day.
She was just getting into her mental comfort, when the sudden sounds of a panic alarm shook her from her bed and sent her flying to the floor. Her feral instincts kicked in to high gear, as she talked into her com ring.
"Jess, its Shalimar what's going on?"
"Shal, were having problems in the basement!"
"What is it?"
"Two mutants, ugly ones. Come quick!"
With that, Shalimar was out the door in a flash. Great, just what she needed!
-Emma-
Emma was just sitting at her computer, blankly staring at the screen. She had thought she would be alright and be able to concentrate on her work; but after the little incident earlier, she just couldn't shake this overwhelming desolation.
As much as she tried to fight it, Emma wished that Shalimar would come bursting through that very door and take her right then and there. It was the same fantasy she had been having for almost two years. Nothing ever changed in the dream; the motions were always the same, the sex was slow and astonishing, and it was always enough to send a slight smile escaping from her lips.
She knew that she shouldn't give in to temptation, especially since it was Shalimar who didn't want her! But that still didn't mean that she didn't think about groveling at her feet for forgiveness. She was fully aware that she had mated with her at the club that night; and she was also familiar with the affects that mating had on people's minds and bodies. So in some way, she knew that Shal was probably going through the same thing as she was.
She tried to get her mind off of the unattainable, and back to the matter at hand. She had twenty new IDs to make and only tell 4:00 this afternoon in which to get it done. She though maybe a little music would help her get back on track; so with that, she hit the play button on her CD player and let herself get lost in the music.
"Why, do you always do this to me?
Why, couldn't you just see through me?
How come, you act like this
Like you just don't care at all
Do you expect me to believe I was the only one to fall?
I could feel I could feel you near me, even though you're far away
I could feel I could feel you baby, why
It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why
Hey, listen to what we're not saying
Let's play, a different game than what we're playing
Try, to look at me and really see my heart
Do you expect me to believe I'm gonna let us fall apart?
I could feel I could feel you near me, even when you're far away
I could feel I could feel you baby, why
It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why
So go and think about whatever you need to think about
Go ahead and dream about whatever you need to dream about
And come back to me when you know just how you feel, you feel
I could feel I could feel you near me, even though you're far away
I could feel I could feel you baby, why
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why "
"Okay, maybe not the best choice right now!"
She stood up to walk over to her collection, to try and find a more chipper selection, but was inadvertently interrupted by the panic alarm. She quickly stiffened at the thought of someone invading her space. She lifted her right hand, and began to speak.
"Bren, it's Emma; what's up?"
"We're under attack, two mutants, ugly ones down in the basement, come quick!"
Emma knew that if Brennan was in a state of panic, then it must be bad; so she hurried up and shut down the mainframe so that no one could get in or out of the Sanctuary and proceeded to the basement.
-Jessie & Brennan-
Jessie and Brennan sat impatiently down in the basement, hoping that this all worked out. They knew they would only have enough time to shove the girls in the room and lock it before one of them retaliated. It was going to have to be done skillfully and without error; or they were going to have to deal with a grumpy psionic and angry feral.
"Jesus, what is taking them so damn long? Better hope that this never happens for real, or we might actually end up getting killed waiting for them to get here!"
"Calm yourself bro, now do you remember what we talked about?"
"Yes daddy, I think I've got it!"
"Don't think Bren, either we get this right the first time or… I don't even want to think about what they will do to us!"
"Does the term ouch, mean anything to you?"
-Emma & Shalimar-
Emma and Shalimar arrived within seconds of one another. They almost knocked each other over just as they were heading around the corner.
"Where is everybody?"
"How the hell would I know, I just got here!"
"Well, figured your cat like sniff would pick up something!"
"Well, what about you keen intellect?"
"Never mind lets just concentrate on finding the guys!"
"I think that's the best suggestion you've had in a while."
"Jess, Bren, its Shal where are you guys?"
-Jessie & Brennan-
The boys almost feel off of the krait they were sitting on when they heard the terrified voices of their other team members. They gave each other one last reassuring nod, and put their plan into action.
"Help, were in here! Come quick!"
They could here the simultaneous foot steps of the women getting closer to where they were, and as soon as Emma and Shalimar approach the door; they moved to each side of the door way ready to attack.
-Emma & Shalimar-
The girls cautiously entered the room, shoulder to shoulder, and ready for action. They couldn't see the boys or any mutants for that matter; but they sure as hell felt the force of two men pushing them in the room. They both hit the ground, and looked up only in time to be able to see the faces of the boys.
"Were sorry ladies, but this is for your own good!"
Shal was the first to recover from the blow, and quickly jumped to her feet, ready to pounce.
"What the hell is the big idea boys, calling a false alarm like that? You scared us to death."
"Yeah guys, that wasn't cool!"
"Well, either is the way you two have been acting!"
"Jess, I am warning you, don't push me! I am so not in the mood for this; now let us out of hear, before you feel pain!"
"Sorry Shal, but Jess and I feel that you two need a little alone time; and the only way you are going to get yourselves out of this one, is by talking to each other."
The girls just looked at each other, and then began to bolt for the door; but it was too late. The boys had swiftly closed it behind them, locking them inside.
Emma raised her arms and roughly pounded on the door.
"Let us out, this isn't funny any more! You know I'm claustrophobic!"
"Sorry Em, but unless you and Shal work this thing out, you are going to be in there for a while. You'll find everything you need in there; food, water, we even put your personals in there ladies. Now I suggest you start verbalizing."
"You won't get away with this; Adam will kill you once he finds out you've locked us in here!"
"Actually Shalimar, I think it is one of the best ideas Jess has ever had!"
"Adam?! Do you mean that you knew about this and still went along with it?"
"Yes, I have tried everything to get you two to work this thing out. I am desperate. I don't know what is so bad between you two that you can't make this work; but I do know that when two people love each other, they shouldn't have to go through this. Now like Bren said before, unless you two start talking, you're never going to get out there. I have recruited some help to replace the both of you until you decided to come to your senses; so don't think we can't function without you, because we can. I have no time to deal with this petty dispute. Now either get over it or don't plan on staying here with Mutant X. I have no patience to deal with a psionic whose powers are on the fritz or a feral that can't function."
Shal knew that Adam was serious. He would never threaten to kick any of his family out unless there was really a problem.
She and Emma just look at each other, and with that the boys said their goodbyes.
Created on ... May 05, 2003