Rating: G
Pairing: Shalimar/Emma
Series: Two Hearts
Disclaimer: I don't own any of these characters; all rights go to those who do. I am just using them.
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For two hours, it was the same routine over and over again. Emma would just stand in front of the door, beating and pounding the crap out of it. She was praying to God that the force of her fists would send the door bursting into a million pieces.
"Help! Let us out of here! Somebody, any body?"
Shalimar couldn't help it; Emma just looked so cute when she was pissed. But at the same time, she was giving her a splitting headache with her constant racket.
"Em, give it up! Face it sweetie we're stuck in here."
Shalimar gave her this super sexy, your mine look; and Emma could feel the lump in the back of her throat blocking her ability to swallow. She hated being this close to Shalimar, especially when all she wanted to do was jump her.
"Well, we just can't sit here all day! I have like a bazillion things to do and all of them have a dead line. God, this really sucks!"
"Hey, you're not exactly my first choice for playing deserted island, but you get what you pay for."
Emma was clearly not amused. Typical Shalimar, always making jokes when things were serious.
"Why do you always do that?"
The confused feral didn't quite understand what she was talking about so she answered her question with a question.
"Do what?"
"Why do you always make stupid jokes at the wrong time? I mean, Shal please do you think you could possibly save the sarcasm for when we get out of here?"
"Okay, now your just being mean! Emma I don't want to fight with you. It is just going to make this whole experience even more unpleasant then it already is."
"Oh yeah, because I forgot that I am not good enough to hang around with the mighty Shalimar Fox. And let's not forget, that I am also not good enough to talk too…"
"Are you done pouting, or am I going to have to listen to this wallowing in self pity the entire time we are in here?"
"Excuse me?"
"I just want to know if I should get the headphone out now or later."
"You have some nerve, you know that? Were you just born brainless or did you take lessons?"
With that last remark Shalimar shot up and gave her a serious look, then answered her.
"I took lessons!"
Emma couldn't help but shake her head and giggle. Shalimar was adorable when she argued.
"Why are we doing this?"
"Why are we doing what?"
"Emma, why are we fighting? When did it get to the point that we couldn't stand to be around each other? I miss you!"
Emma couldn't believe what she had just heard, was Shalimar Fox actually admitting that she missed her?
"If I remember correctly, I was the one who didn't want to stop talking; it was you who didn't want to open up to me. You know, you really hurt me."
Shalimar witnessed Emma's expression go from strong to vulnerable. It was breaking her heart. She had never meant to hurt her.
"I wasn't expecting a miracle Shal; I just wanted you to talk to me, tell me how you felt. I didn't expect you to reciprocate or even share my feelings; I just wanted to know that you didn't hate me. That's all."
Emma was in tears now. This conversation was a little so real. She had practiced over and over again in her mind, and every time it reached this part in her head, she lost it. She never wanted to be invisible so badly before, then that very moment.
"Em, I could never hate you! Please, believe me. I was so scared. I didn't know what was going on. One minute you were kissing me; and I was for sure that I didn't want it. I had spent so much time lusting after Brennan that I didn't even consider the other options. Then, I almost lost you.
Did I ever tell you what that did to me? Em, the minute you stopped breathing, it felt like I stopped right along with you. I really love you, you are my best friend; and when we had sex that night, I wasn't sure if it was because I was trying to make for hurting you or whether it was because I wanted you. I was so confused. I had been having these thoughts; thoughts that not most people have about their best friends. It was like I was seeing you for the first time, not just as a friend but as a lover. Now tack that on to being in heat, and you have me royally screwing up yet again. I wanted so much to talk about it afterwards, but you have to understand that it's hard for me. I wasn't going to use you, but I wasn't sure that I wanted to continue."
Emma moved closer to Shalimar, never removing her eyes from her. She knelt down between her legs, using them for support; and lifted Shal's face so they were making eye contact.
"Shal, I don't want to pressure you into anything; but I do need to know if you are ever going to be able to care for me the way you I do for you. I don't care if the answer is no, I can live with that; but I can't live without my best friend."
Shalimar burst into tears; she knew that Emma was being honest; she wouldn't care either way if she chose to peruse a relationship with her. She wanted her, but she wasn't sure if it was because she was lonely or if it was because she loved her.
"Em, do you think you could possibly give me time to think about this. I just need to decide whether I can open myself up to you. Right now, I just need a friend. "
"I can live with that!"
Emma smiled and gave Shalimar a hug. She was lying when she said she didn't care; because she did. But for Shal's shake, she would put those feeling aside however long it took. All that mattered was that they were together. Even if it wasn't sexually, it was better than nothing.
The boys finally showed up around 6:30 in the morning; and were pleasantly surprised to find the two women snuggled up together. They had gotten a little worried because things had gotten so quite. They just smile at each other and left the door unlocked.
Slowly but surely, things were returning back to normal. Adam found a way to reverse the affects that the mating had on the girls' brains. It was a risky thing to do, but it needed to be done. Both girls felt a huge relief being released when the symptoms from their little slip was cured. They decided that for now, it would be best to just remain friends. They knew it wouldn't be an easy transition, but they both were willing to work on it.
Created on ... May 05, 2003