Have you ever had one of those days that started out
like pure gold and turned into pure crap? That's the kind of day I had yesterday, only I lucked out and it ended up being
perfect.
It started out with me waking up early with a smile,
I got up and meditated and worked out for a little bit before Adam sent us out to check on a new mutant. It was at a local
24 hour club that I used to hang out at. I ran into an old friend named Todd and his new steady, a scum-bag named Geoff. This
guy was a real loser who didn't deserve Todd, cuz Todd's a grade-a nice guy. We headed out of the club and saw Todd and Geoff
necking and I made some remark to Jesse about that relationship was totally wrong. I guess I should have thought about how
that sounded, but more about that later.
We ran into some GSA goons and Jesse got caught in between phases and was almost nailed, luckily I saw and managed to rescue him. I was more than a little worried and guess I might have dumped on him a little too hard, he took off and that was the last I saw of him until late that evening.
This is where things started
getting weird. After we'd gotten back to Sanctuary I ran into Emma who slapped me. "I thought you were a better person than
that Brennan, I'm ashamed of you. He deserves better than that and I hope he finds it and I hope you suffer because of your
attitude." She then turned around and stomped off. I didn't know what that was all about, but I was thoroughly confused. I
thought Emma and I were friends and who was he? It just hurt my brain to try to come up with an answer so I
just stopped trying, at least until later.
Around 3 PM I ran into Shalimar,
who threw her arm around my waist like we were long-lost friends. "Brennan, we need to talk." She gave me this smile that
put chills down my spine and made me wonder if I should have finalized plans for my funeral. "It's like this, I love him like
a brother so if you hurt him, you have me to answer to. If you hurt him, when I am finished with you, you will be a big pile
of worthless, electrically charged DNA. Am I making myself clear?" Shit there was that smile again, she had gone completely
feral and I was thinking about where I could hide.
"Perfectly clear, just one
thing?" Damn, she was gone. Who the hell was him? It was beginning to make me crazy, I have no clue about what
is going on here, but I was beginning to wonder if some sort of nerve gas had affected the female members of the team. Maybe
I should talk to Adam? I finally tracked him down in the lab, "Adam, could I talk to you for a second?"
"What can I do for you Brennan?"
He motioned to a chair for me to have a seat and he sat down in one next to me.
"What the hell is going on
with Emma and Shalimar? First Emma slapped me and told me what a louse I was and I don't remember doing anything that would
bother her that bad, then Shalimar just gave me what amounted to her version of the shovel speech. I'm totally lost man."
"Shovel speech?" Adam smiled.
"You know like Willow gave
Riley on Buffy the Vampire Slayer. Basically if you hurt my friend I will hurt you. The problem is I have no clue about who
she's talking about."
Adam shook his head, "Sometimes
Brennan, you're very bright, other times you're absolutely oblivious. Both Emma and Shalimar were talking about the same person,
I won't bother to give you a lecture because I know you won't hurt him. I've seen the looks you give him that he apparently
has never seen. They're talking about Jesse."
"What about Jesse?"
"Apparently Jesse has managed
to hide his attraction to you, he's hid it from both me and you. Something happened this morning that made him
decide you were, well how shall I put this, slightly homophobic." I gave him a confused look, "He thinks that there is no
hope for him because you are against two men being in a relationship. I don't happen to believe that, I think you're a better
person than that."
Suddenly everything was becoming
much clearer, that's why Emma had said what she had, and apparently Shalimar didn't buy it, she just warned me. "I gotta find
Jesse and talk to him, any idea where he is?"
"No, but I'm putting my faith
in your ability to solve this problem. All of you are in many ways my children, and when one of my children is hurting, we're
all hurting."
"Don't worry about it Adam, everything is going to be just fine." I know I had a big shit-eating grin on
my face. I had been dreaming of Jesse for awhile now, ever since we'd met. I'd just never seen him show any interest in anything
but women, so I'd kept my mouth shut so I wouldn't ruin the friendship.
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That's it, I was beginning
to get frustrated! I'd checked everyplace I could possibly think of; Jesse's room, the computer area, the workout room, hell
I even checked some places I hadn't known existed until today, but I still hadn't managed to find Jesse. So it was last ditch
time, I had to go ask Shalimar. I knocked lightly on her door and heard voices, maybe Jesse was in there talking to her. I
pushed open the door and started talking "Shal, I'm looking for Jesse, have you seen..." Oh shit. Shalimar was more than a
little busy. She and Emma were naked, entwined on the bed and a little sweaty. Shalimar lifted her head and glared. "Hello!
Sorry, just a minute of your time and you two ladies can get back to what you're doing, after all I'd hate to be responsible
for coitus-interruptus. Have either of you seen Jesse, or do you have any idea of where I could find him?"
"Is this going to be another
problem for you Brennan?" Emma asked.
"Nope, no problem. If I might
say so you ladies look absolutely perfect together, but tell me one thing Emma, does she purr when she...?"
Shalimar opened his mouth
to say something when Emma started giggling, "Yeah, actually she does, well not when, but afterward."
Shalimar did that lifted
eyebrow thing of hers and said, "Well if you two are finished talking about me, did you check Jesse's room?" I nodded yes.
"Did you check his closet? Sometimes he curls up in there, like whenever he wants to hide. Don't forget, I will hurt you if..."
"I won't forget but you don't
need to worry about it. If I hurt him, I hurt me. I'll make it okay, I promise." They both smiled at me and I headed back
out the door, "As you were ladies!" I heard something hit the door and Emma giggling as I headed for Jesse's room.
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When I'd gotten into Jesse's
room I opened the closet door, saying a little prayer that he was in there, he was. He was curled up in a little ball, wrapped
around an empty bottle of booze, the smell reeked out of his pores. I took the bottle away from him and tugged him up. "Come
on Jesse, on your feet. You need a shower my friend."
Apparently the bottle hadn't
been full because the eyes that looked at me were too clear for him to have drank that much. "I don't need a shower." He glared
at me, I smiled back.
"Yeah, you do. You stink!
You get in the shower and I'll find us something to eat, go on." I made little shooing motions with my hands and he stared
at me even as he wandered into the bathroom. I started to head out when I though of something else; I went into the bathroom
and put some toothpaste on his toothbrush. "Jesse, don't forget to brush your teeth."
"Who are you, the tooth fairy?
I can take care of myself." I just ignored his remarks and left to find some food.
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After hitting the kitchen
for finger foods, I stopped by my room and changed into something a little more comfortable and brushed my own teeth. When
I got back to his room, I lightly knocked and heard his voice tell me to come in. I pushed open the door and sat down the
food on the desk. "Did you brush your teeth?"
"What is this sudden fixation
with my oral hygiene?" he asked.
I gave him a grin worthy
of Shalimar when she's on the prowl and promptly shoved him against the wall. I could see the fear in his eyes, I'd get rid
of that soon enough. "I have this thing about doing this with people who have bad breath and cruddy mouths." Then I proceeded
to lace my fingers with his and leaned down and started kissing. After a few seconds he groaned and I slid my tongue in. He
didn't do anything for a few seconds, just let me have my way with him, but after he realized what was going on he dived in
with lots of enthusiasm. I let go of his hands so I could slide my own under the t-shirt he was wearing, his in the meantime
were sliding up and down my back, clutching at my shirt.
He suddenly shoved me away,
"What the hell do you think you're doing?"
"If you can't figure that
out Jesse, I'm worried about you."
"You don't think guys should be together."
"Jesse, if I really believed
that would I be reading Whitman?" I could see the confusion in his eyes, my fault, I'd put that there. "Jesse, why don't we
sit down and eat and we'll talk, okay?" He finally sat down on the bed, leaning against the headboard, I grabbed the tray
and sat down next to him.
"I guess you've decided that
I was against gays because of what I said at the club this morning." He nodded his agreement. "I meant that that
relationship was wrong, not gay relationships. Todd's a nice guy and he deserves better than that sleaze he's seeing. He used
to tell me he wanted to be a house husband, find some guy who was willing to take care of him. He's had a tough life and he
really just wants someone to love him and support him, just like a lot of women. He doesn't have any ambitions beyond making
some lucky guy deliriously happy. Trust me, he's more than most guys can handle where sex is concerned, I know this for a
fact." Jesse's mouth dropped open and I leisurely popped in a bite of food. He shut his mouth and chewed.
"Todd and I had this passionate
affair and made mad-monkey love for about two weeks. It was never serious on either of our parts, I knew he wasn't the person
I wanted forever with and he knew I wasn't the guy who'd take care of him for life." Jesse's mouth opened up and I popped
in another bite, "I'm not gay, but I am definitely bisexual, I make love to the person, not the gender."
His mouth opened up again
and I reached for another bite of food, he beat me and popped one in my mouth. "Why didn't you tell me?"
I finished chewing before
answering, "That works both ways Jess, you've never shown any sign of being even remotely interested in men; you've always
focused on women only."
"I'm still not interested
in men, at least not plural. I'm only interested in a man, singular. Since the first time we met I've felt something
there, and when you were hurt by that damn Russian pulse gun and I thought I was going to lose you then it really made me
realize what I felt. I was worried about losing you as a friend, so I didn't say anything. Guess you were doing the same thing,
huh?"
"Yeah I was, I didn't want
to lose you as a friend, I needed you in my life one way or another. I was willing to settle for less, but not nothing at
all."
Jesse leaned forward and
gently kissed me, "I... I just don't know how this works. I mean I understand the basics, and I looked it up to see how it
actually worked, but I'm not sure if I'm ready for all of that."
He was nervously biting his
lip and looking so damn adorable, so damn irresistible that I didn't even try, resisting I mean. I leaned forward and gave
him a kiss and dipped my tongue in, he shoved the tray and it hit the floor with a crash. I found myself with a handful of
eager Jesse who wanted it all and wanted it now. I pulled him on top of me and jerked off his t-shirt so I could get my hands
full of smooth skin, at the same time Jesse was trying to get my shirt off without ever breaking the lip connection. He finally
figured out that wasn't possible and broke the lip lock so he could tug my shirt off. I took this as an invitation to move
my lips elsewhere, and I started licking and sucking on his nipples. He really, really liked this and gave me a groan of approval
which motivated me to move on to the other side. I rolled us over so Jess was on the bottom, I moved down his body until I
reached his waist. I untied the sweat pants and slid them down, he lifted his hips and I pulled them off and tossed them to
the side.
I looked up to find Jesse
staring down at me with a strange expression, kind of a mixture between fear and longing. I suppose he was just scared of
the unknown, of what this might do to our relationship, I planned to reassure him... of course I planned to do it my own way.
I tipped my head down and slowly swirled my tongue around Jesse's cock, I loved this... the first time I tasted a new lover.
I think that they never taste the same again, but that's just my opinion. Jess groaned and his hips pushed up, I just pushed
them back down and held on while I slowly slid him into and out of my mouth. I looked up to see a look of such exquisite agony-ecstasy
on his face. I realized what I wanted and let his cock slide out of my mouth.
"Oh god! Don't stop, please
Bren, don't stop!"
I climbed back up his body
and started kissing him, "Jess, I want you to make love to me." He looked at me with a confused stare, guess I needed to be
a little plainer, a little less subtle. "Jesse, fuck me."
"But... I don't know how?"
"Jess, I know you've made love to women before, it's the same basic idea, just a little location change
and a few added details. In my pants pocket are the things we need." Jesse slid his hand in my pocket and pulled out the lube
and condom and then preceded to unbutton my pants and pull them down. He reached out and gently caressed Brennan Jr. God,
it felt so good, the groan came echoing up from my chest. He leaned down and ran his tongue over my slit and pulled another
groan from me. The image of his head leaning down over me, making me feel this damn good almost made me come. "J-jesse. Too
much."
He lifted his head, "I never
knew a man could taste so good." He was licking his lips and looking a little bit like Shalimar when she went feral, and man-oh-man
was it a turn-on. "What do I do?"
"T-take the lube and slick
up your finger, slowly slide it... oh god, y-yes, j-just like that." He was sliding his finger in and out of my ass. He pulled
them out and lubed up another finger before going back in. I just moaned until he put in the third finger and reached in a
little deeper and hit my prostate and the stars came out and I jerked.
Jess pulled his fingers out,
"Oh shit, I'm sorry. What did I do wrong?"
"Nothing. It's called the
prostate, maybe one of these days you'll let me show. Think of it as a whoopee cushion up your ass." I pulled him down and
kissed him making sure I got lots of tongue action. "Now would you put that condom on and fuck me."
He smiled and kissed me again,
"Since you asked so nicely, how should we do this?"
"You do your part and let
me worry about the rest." He rolled on the condom and rubbed some lube on before he slid in. I felt the familiar burn and
muscle tension, I laid my hands on his arm, "J-just wait." I could see the nerves on his neck standing out, but he held off
until I managed to relax. I wrapped my legs around his waist and told him, "Move Jesse."
He started slowly sliding
in and out, I think he was afraid of hurting me at first but after he saw my reaction he pumped a little harder and faster.
To be honest me telling him to fuck me harder, faster might have had something to do with that. He reached down and started
stroking me in time with his pumping. Just a few minutes and we both came with a bang. He collapsed on top of me and we laid
there, still connected and breathing hard. He finally softened to the point that he fell out and when that happened I rolled
us both over to our sides.
His eyes were sparkling and
he just kept running his fingers through my hair. "Hey Jess, what's with this fascination with my hair?"
"It's so soft. I never expected
it to be that soft. Actually I don't think I expected anything to be like it really was."
This made me just a little
nervous, I hoped he wasn't regretting what we'd done, I didn't, in fact I wanted it to keep happening, I didn't mind it if
I was his first male lover, just so long as I was his first, last and only. I gave him a weak little smile, "Didn't I manage
to live up to your expectations?"
He gave me one of those 100
mega-watt smiles, "No, you blew my expectations all to hell. It was way more than I'd ever dreamed, you've probably ruined
me for any one else."
"Good!"
He just smiled and stood
up and held out his hand, "We need another shower, then you need to feed me cuz I'm starving." I just shook my head and wandered
with him into the shower.
While we were showering I
thought to ask him, "Jesse, am I just dense or slow or what?" He just grinned at me, "I mean, I always thought I could read
people but I had no clue about you and, well... I kinda walked in on Emma and Shalimar and... how long has that been going
on?" The brat just laughed and shook his head, guess a long time from his reaction.
Just a few minutes later
and we were clean and dressed, I was glad I'd brought some clean sweats back with me. We were just kissing at his bedroom
door when someone started pounding on it. Jess fumbled until he managed to turn the knob, "What the hell do you want," he
managed to mumble out between our lips.
"Break the lip lock boys.
Emma and I have the munchies and I hoped you and Brennan had the same problem."
"Hoped? This from the same woman who threatened to turn
me into molten DNA?"
"Molten DNA?" Jesse turned to Shalimar, "Are you going
to explain that one?"
She smiled, "Just doing my duty as your big sister, now
are either of you hungry?"
We smiled at each other, and both said at the exact same
time "Starved!"
She wrapped one arm around Emma and the other around
Jesse, who had his own arms around me and Shalimar, "So, lets eat!"
So like I said, the day started out great, crashed a bit in the middle, but ended up being one of the best days of my life!
Created on ... April 29, 2003